Different kind of Pain

What a pain! I been having pain on my shoulder from weeks now. It makes my thumb and index finger numb. Seen two doctors but not improving. So I am going to see a specialist today-orthopedic. Although I am having pain and numbness. I still cook and taking care of him as he is sick too. Down with flu and body aching. He refused to see a doctor. What make me feel sad and angry(a little bit anger) is that he refused everything that I offered such as taking him to see a doctor, food that I cooked, water, and etc. Just have to get rid of this feeling of ????? do not know how to describe it. He went out 6.45am. I told him that I am going to sent him. I woke up early and get ready to sent it but he refused my help. I am worry that he can't drive with his condition. He just drove off, just like that. So I feel the pain(heart) and the numbness (feelings). Going to attend physiotherapy coming Wednesday to fit the problems. A visit to the hospital cost me around RM120.00 and an hour of waiting.